Aaaaand I’m back! It’s been more than two years since my last post in this blog. It’s been a rollercoaster ride for me ever since. But now that I’m recovering from my self-imposed quarter life crisis (definition by Wiki: a period of life usually ranging from the late teens to the early thirties, in which a person begins to feel doubtful about their own lives, brought on by the stress of becoming an adult), I’m determined to bring back my old self.
Since then a lot of things happened: I had graduated from college, passed the Board Exam for CPA’s, had my first two jobs, and now I am on a vacation–transition to the next job–so yes that’s about three jobs for almost a span of two years. Oops. :-p
I realized I was burning out more easily than before. I’m guessing it’s because of the lack of this–writing my thoughts on my own journal–and, God forbid, I felt like I was losing my own personality. In short, I didn’t notice that I was already trying to blend in with the crowd.
I got too preoccupied by how fast time flies that each passing moment was losing its essence; I was too scared of the responsibilities, of getting old. I will not elaborate on the details, but I felt like I was always running out of time, that I couldn’t anymore afford to stop to smell the flowers unlike back in the day. And being the introvert that I am, who expresses herself better in writing, I eventually lost my voice in this world full of noise. Every thoughts ingrained on me, nstead of asking, “Is this what God wants for me? Is this what I truly desire?” I tend to ask “Is this the best course of action to take?” to other people who are no better in making decisions for themselves.
Don’t get me wrong, I really really tried to go back. Every now and then I would play games and watch anime too (also in a hasteful manner) but the hype would only last for a moment. I tried writing blog posts again and again but always got distracted and decide not to post them. (Perhaps I was waiting for an epic idea to make my comeback post, but alas, no such idea hit me.)
Well at least I made the effort. 🙂 For my next posts I will share what I have been up to lately.
For now look at the picture of Octo. Just because. Hoho.